11 March 2002: a few words.
Peter wants us to speak
our rememberings, in some form. I approve, and reading back over my own September notes
I notice I never gave a full account of myself on the day of. So here
goes. (conversations approximate. i was not taking notes.)
I don't watch TV much, nor listen to the radio at home; that's a car and
work thing. So my own morning peacefulness lasted about as long as
anyone's could have, that day. I was already awake when my mother
called, but I was still in bed; I'm normally a morning person but I
must have stayed up playing on the computer the night before. I don't
remember.
My mother called me around 8 am (Pacific). She wasn't crying, but she was
agitated. "Turn on the TV," she said. "The World Trade Center
collapsed. Two planes crashed into it."
My mind did not quite wrap itself around this. " ... Collapsed? What do
you mean collapsed?"
"A plane crashed into one of the towers, and then another plane
crashed into the other one, and then they both collapsed. and a plane
crashed into the Pentagon."
" ... Pentagon?" I was looking around for my TV remote. "What part of
them collapsed? Where did the planes hit?" I understood what she was
saying, that she was saying that both the skyscrapers had fallen all the
way down, but part of my brain was pretending it did not understand this,
because that would be too awful. I found the remote and turned on the TV.
All three major networks and maybe a couple others were showing a huge
cloud of smoke over Lower Manhattan. I hope I did not say "whoa," but I
can't swear that I didn't.
"Have you heard from Stewart, is he in
Boston?" My brother had just flown back to Boston from a monthlong
business trip to San Francisco. At least he was supposed to have flown
back, that last weekend.
"He's supposed to be, I haven't talked to him though."
"You don't think he went down to that apartment yet?" He was scheduled to
share a Manhattan apartment with a couple of friends from September
through December.
"Well, I don't think so, but I don't know."
Mama had been watching TV since 6 am, shortly after the first plane hit.
She saw everything happen live, staring, thinking along with the
anchorpeople, "wait... what was that? was that another plane?" and then
"the... what, something's happening ... a lot of smoke, another explosion?
so much smoke we can't see the tower ..." and then the other one followed
it down, and then when the reports started to come in about the planes,
and she heard "Boston", "LA", "San Francisco", she started to wonder where
exactly Stewart was for sure, and called me. Through email and/or
telephone we later established that Stewart was indeed safe in Boston (or
as safe as anyone could feel), and had not run down to New York for a
quick visit. It also occurred to me that I knew a few people in NYC too.
None of them worked at the WTC, as far as I knew, but then I started
seeing the pictures of crowds on the streets, staring, crying, and then
running.
While I sat at my computer, sending out emails to various people and
waiting for replies, I watched replays of the towers collapsing, and
people staring from sidewalks and crying, and the second plane hitting,
and my brain was having trouble absorbing this. all of it.
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I have to get ready for work now. more later.
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